100K and other things...

my 99 honda accord has passed the 100k mark -- is that too soon? no clue. but benchmarks like this makes me reflective. 100,000 miles of wild rides, road trips, unintelligent decisions, and both significant and insignificant moments. i have become a different person in these past 6+ years, and i often wonder what moment has been the most influential.

-getting pulled over after a night of partying: didn't get the DUI, but i continue to be scared out of my mind whenever i drive home after drinking (even after just 2 drinks). definitely put my party-girl ways to rest

-getting laid off after six months at my first job out of college: i would have never had the chance to live in nyc or chicago if i still remained at my first job. and i realized for the first time that some things can't be planned, no matter how much i try to play it safe

-death of a loved one: i'm not sure what had more of an impact -- losing someone that i loved so much or knowing that this selfless, caring woman died knowing that her husband didn't really love her anymore. kind of messes up my former idealized notions of love and relationships.

i know i sound dark and pessimistic but i am hopeful that i am not. i rationalize that i'm just more realistic. and just as these moments have changed me, new moments can alter my attitude as well.

other things...
-went to happy hour today with the co-workers. funny how a little alcohol and out of office time always leads to some heartfelt venting.
-had the christmas party with the berkeley peeps. that was fun! gosh darn it, i was this close to bringing home the erotic dice -- nice steal ro! haha
-celebrated eric's bday at luna lounge. it's been so long since i've had a chance to dance with my homegirls. strange thing, i saw this one person by the bathrooms that i recognized. i couldn't figure out why she looked so familiar, but then i realized much later that i went to high school with her. oops.
-went to wonderfull at mighty last month. i love stevie wonder! all these random people were there, including someone that i used to carpool with in elementary school. small world

song of the moment:
love it or leave it by alicia keys, mos def, & common